Is it worth it?

Hi hello and welcome to my blog (i know no one is reading this freaking post but i just wanna say hello)

I've been thinking about this lately, I don't think this job is suitable for me. But at the same time, Idk if I am good at something else. I can't even choose what I like, and can't even tell what I am good at.

I wish life is a bit easier on me, or maybe it's already easy but I am not functioning well T-T so everything seems so difficult.

I've been spending more than 10 years doing this shit (med school 6 years, HO 2 years, MO 3 years), and I feel it will be such a waste if I decided to end it. But the more I hold onto it, the more sad I am, the more difficult for me, and obviously my mental health... yeah...

What actually i want in life? What actually I am good at? Did i ever do a good job with my current job? IDK, this empty feeling killed me.

Maybe i should just resign, go for some trips that can help me find myself... but how if... yeah how if.. i didn't? I am scared to start a new journey, but I am sad in this current journey...

Is there any door that can open without i myself go and knock ah?

too empty. my life seems like nothing. too empty.

empty. and sad. and stressful.

Tired of this. but i love clinical. but i am tired.

Is it worth it?

bye