Terkesan..

Assalamualaikum

Just nak cakap, I had a very "terkesan" night last 2 days during my night shift.

I met 2 familes, 2 type of husbands.

My patients, both are wives, with kids.

It's just sad that I have to see all these, but I knew I had to.

Both of my patients ended up intubated, and CPR-ed.

And both of them left me in the morning when I am about to end my shift.

It's just something to ponder on, when you met 2 kind of husbands.

One of them, wish his wife could survive, told us to do our very best, and ended up letting her go because he knew that's the best. At least he tried.

The other one is just, too much. Sorry for judging but telling that you can't decide for your wife is unacceptable when she's not stable and need intervention. Your decision is needed. Your wife maybe was waiting for your answer, but ended leaving this world that morning, while waiting for your decision. We CPR-ed her, but she's gone.

You know what, sometimes I don't understand some people like how some people don't understand me.

You are her husband. She is married to you, she is the one whom you chose to be with, the one who gave you kids, who took care of you. She is about to die and need intervention, what took you so long and hesitate for a long time to give your decision? The way you answered us and the way you gave us your feedback, all of that shows that you don't even bother if she dies.

That morning, my friends and I CPR-ed her. 

She left this world.

I cried, because I felt disappointed with the husband and also, because she's quite young to leave this world.

I know semua orang try their best. I know

It is just sad I have to see all these. 

And this make me think twice about getting married.

I don't know. 

Couldn't help myself lah i cried sampai petang. Sebab I feel so so so sedih for that patient. I know I shouldn't but if I was her and my husband mcm tu, i feel so sad and kecewa sangat sangat. 

I don't know what happened to those lovey dovey thing , lenyap begitu sahaja kah cinta as kita dimamah usia? Entah.

Weh I should continue doing my slides.

PLEASE APPRECIATE YOUR FAMILY, YOUR WIFE/HUSBAND.

Goodbye for now

Hewwwwwww