October 23

So fast it's already October 2023. Time flies. And many things happened. Too many. From work life to personal life. A lot.

Writing here today, just because I feel like writing. While listening to Red scarf by Wei Bird.

I don't know I should start from where, but basically things happened.

Currently I am on my sick leave. Haven't go to work properly since July. Have to go back to Peninsula because I have to seek some expert opinion over here as borneo doesn't have it. I am still on treatment for now. They said it's improving. It's working. It's responding. I hope so. They said I am lucky to be able to detect it earlier. Sykur.

But I was suffering a bit la, lol as the treatment doesn't really work on me at first. Seems like this treatment will take some time but I hope, I will recover as soon as possible. I do miss my stress working life. Sitting at home, going back and forth to hospital/kk as a patient doesn't make me happy at all. Okay maybe bcs I was admitted twice prior to my sick leaves lol. So I macam lama sangam left my work haha.

There are many things I want to see and do in my life. But I know, if I want to do everything, I need money and time. Which is I am not very sure whether I will have it enough or not. Hmm

I wonder which path will I choose later. What is my future. Where will God lead me to? I truthfully don't know. Still haven't decide on taking exam and become specialist. Idk... ahhhh life.

It's okay. Just find what's the meaning of this life first lol just lemme recover first and decide later. who knows suddenly I got married ke apa haha. OKAY STOP 

If you ever encounter this post, whoever you are, please pray for me, that I will recover as soon as I can, work normally and do my oh so stress on call haha. hope I will become a better person every year, every moment, every time. please pray that I will always be healthy. and finish my treatment successfully. okay tbh the medications do give me side effects till now but I treat it as much as I can because I need the medications. So please pray that I will tolerate my treatment as good as I can. Tq gais love you.

thank you for reading this post :)

Han.