2025 and I am still alive

Hi everyone. How are you? I am not sure ada tak orang baca my blog in 2025 but if ada, I wish you such a bless year! Thank you for coming here.

It's April 2025 now. Tomorrow is the last day of April 2025 and will be moving to May 2025 soon. For those who by any chance read this and didn't follow me on facebook nor instagram, I have made such a big move this year. I don't know if I should be proud or not for being brave, but yeah I guess I should not regret whatever decision I have made.

First thing first in this 2025, I have finally let go of something that I have been holding on for the past 4 years. Yes, I left medical department in January 2025. I did my service till 31/12/24. The decision was too sudden and I didn't expect my wish was granted immediately. After 1 day of expressing my wish, the next day I was told that my wish was granted. And I need to start in my new department in January 2025. While I was in medical, I went through a lot. I learned a lot. And I met many people. And most of them are indeed a super nice person, that I want to work with , for like a long time, but I know I can't. Likely because kitonyo manjo. Okay, actually there's a reason behind it but let me keep it to myself. I just, let it go. And medex that I took saje saje and passed, well, I just let it go too. Well, sedih when I left, out of sudden but my existence wont change anything. Medical people still need to work as usual. My 4 years gone just like that, but I never regret on my decision to enjoy that torturing 4 years. I am happy and I am grateful to be able to be in that department and learnt new things. Thanks everyone.

New environment, made me a bit stressed, and uncomfortable as it is totally a new world, like it is too complicated, but I know, I can do this. My MO used to say this to me when I was a HO "campaklah kau kat mana pun, kau akan hidup" and yes, I am still alive despite struggling. It's totally a new world but I will try my best. It's just that, I have to meet more people every weekend. Haha

This year also, I went to D&E concert in KL. I am happy to be able to use my S24 ultra for fancam because the video and pictures are super awesome and also because I can see my crush, Hae Oppa. I hope wherever you are, you will always be happy and healthy. Including this one person, that left me last year for a better life and future, eventhough you might not know this, but I hope, and always wish for your happiness and of course, I wish you are always healthy. Treat people as many as you can, reach your dream, eventhough I am not part of it, ehh tibe. Be happy, and healthy, oppa and that person.

In February, I started to join a sign language class. Well, okay. I want to learn more as I really love languages. I decided to try this one. I want to enjoy whatever I can now. Now, I have more time to spend on myself. What I saw on instagram last year, does affect me, in a good way. I think I should love myself too. I am not getting younger. I should do things that I want to do. I should love and care about myself more. Stop making other people happy, but you were suffering. Stop treating people's emotions, but forget yours. Well, just complete my exam for this part. I hope I passed and can level up!

This year puasa is quite challenging. Since January I have been having neck pain and also headaches. Likely due to posture during working, as previous department I need to be super active in ward, but now more on relax mode. I am scared it something else like 2 years ago, I did MRI for the first time, luckily there's nothing. Maybe it's because of the nerve itself. Now after did some simple exercise, having better ergonomics equipment, this pain has reduce a bit. And guess what, this year raya, I ada nephew sudah . Earlier last year my lil bro got married and my nephew was born last year November. Such a cutie boy but errr I don't think I can have one. 

May is coming soon, I should start thinking what I want to do this year other than pampering myself. I want to do things I want this whole year, try new things and meet some people. I hope my real oppa will come and find me this year, if not I will be single again this year hahaha

Please always pray that I will always be healthy ya.

Thank you for reading this post.

I miss you.

Han