Wow, it's been a long time tak update blog. What am I doing with my life huh? Hahahahaha. Padahal I used to update my blog everyday when I was a high school student (now no more la pls eba) Well since study pun dah malas update blog because yeah I malas je lol. Missing my fangirling life. The truth is, I still fangirl just tak update je, hehe.
Just finished my Ortho posting but currently in Paeds posting. Have to do this posting in other hospital since our hospital tak dapat lagi cari specialist fot certain department, so nak tak nak I have to go. Ortho? Well, couldn't comment much hahahaha but I am interested in doing ortho but ortho is too hard for someone yg tak suka complicated things like me, ughhh, so... ortho maybe bukan my choice kot, but who knows, kan kan kan
Btw, selamat hari raya, minal aidin walfaidzin. To whoever yang still read my blog, thanks a lot. *jap macam dah lama abandoned, tak rasa pun ada orang baca* OMG, missing my old days. Sobs
Oh ye, just nak shared, I went to D&E concert in KL. Lol, guess what my baby hae is so cute. Tu je aku nak cakap. Seeing him during my end of posting, really makes me happy. Kat medical end of posting aku pergi jalan kat Sabah, now for my ortho posting, aku pergi tengok one of my fav guy in this world kekekeke fav sangat. Of course, one of the reason to keep fighting. My baby Hae is still talented, can dance at his current age. Lol. Cepatlah kawin so I could rasa that feeling of fangirl yg idol dia kawin kahkahkah. Btw, lagu diorang semua best. Korang kena support my oppa juga. Suka lagu If You korean version. Then lagu Lost pun best, rasa handsome je Donghae bila nyanyi lagu tu. Hehehe
To be honest, I am writing this because I miss writing whatever I want to write. I've been so into working these few months, I mean almost a year.. Missing those days where I could lek lek lu and enjoying k-dramas, enjoying all variety shows. Missing those days. Nak nangis buleh dop?
Plus now, aku kat new place, susah nak adapt. I feel so small wherever I go. I just can't. I really hope I could adapt as fast as I can. I really hope I didn't do things that can cause I myself destructed. You know, new surrounding, new people, and everything is new. In ortho, I managed to adapt because what's new is just the management, but people and surrounding tu semua sama. Now in Paeds, everything totally lain. Susah nak adapt. I feel like crying everyday, asyik nak tidur, taknak face real life, but I know I have to, because this is life kan? Macam mana I can become a good doctor if things like this I cant face kan? OMG DID I JUST TENANGKAN MYSELF WITH POSITIVE THINKING WHAAAAAT
I wish myself all the best la, I know it's hard Eba, but you managed to go through harder things than this. Remember? Even if I got extended in this posting pun, I will be okay. I will always be okay with everything that could make me a better person, better doctor. I know, everyone is worried kan pasal thiS contract thing, this placement thing, but I think I shouldn't. If not, I couldn't performed due to overthinking. YAAAAAH
So, please get up Eba. You can do much better than apa people expect. Yang paling penting, my mentor used to tell me, kena ikhlas. Buat apapun kena ikhlas. Tak kiralah it's a small thing ke, ikhlas tu penting. Benda jadi tak best kalau tak ikhlas, kena selalu ikhlas. WTH MISSING YOU MY MENTOR!
Apapun, look up to the sky, keep walking Eba. Because you can.
Okay stop la motivating session ni lol. I should go sleep sebab esok aku kena jaga ward, I mean this morning la. Hopefully they dont tambah patients since raya tak ramai ore kijo.
Han
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