Some random thought

 Hi everything, eh everyone yang still baca blog ni dengan bersungguh sungguh, tak kirelah secara sengaja atau tidak, ehek.

So, it's new year. Apa azam new year korang? Is it still the same, atau carry forward je last year punya azam? Hahahahaha. Talking about goals and azam and so on, rasanya banyak yang ke carry forward sebab last year isn't cool at all kan, semua plan tak jadi, banyak tangguh. Masak apa pun tak jadi hari ni, eh? Hahahahaha

So, currently I just finished my rotation lah dekat this one district hospital. I've joined team covid kat sana and now I dah kena balik my old hospital, to join the same team. And banyak benda I didn't know happened while I am away. And it made me sad actually. Yeah, just sad. Sebab so many things happened and I dah too late to get the news. Taknak komen pasal ni sebab rasa macam noob pulak hahahaha.

And yeah, aku dah dapat dah penempatan for my moship which is very far far away, dekat Sarawak. I don't know lah if my appeal accepted ke tak but whatever it is, if I have to go, I will go and live my life. I know it will be hard for me sebab jauh and new environment but I just want to be a positive person.

Guess what, someone told me to be positive this year. And I want to listen to his advice. I just want to try. Being pessimist bukannya tak okay, for some people they became lagi stronger and lagi berani bila they have negative way of thinking. Negative thinking sometimes bukannya merosakkan semangat kita, sometimes it helps. Serious. Benda yang kita kena elak is bila positive sangat sangat sampai it became toxic, tu takut.

And while I was away la, joining this pandemic team thing, I rasa less stress. I know I am tired but I am not really stress. I become positive, I mean like I know I am happy and I can do things happily and I am positive and sure about it. That's really great isn't?

My plan and my goal now is "i want to be happy, no matter wherever I go, whatever I do." Tu je.

Btw, one of my bestfriends dah kawin. Congratulations. I know somehow each of my bff akan kahwin. And of course I really nak pergi the majlis but due to this pandemic, majlis pun tak boleh buat. But I am happy for her. Dia kawin last year. Hehehe. And I know she's happy. Yang tanya aku bila tu, ah it's very complicated because I am not good in starting a relationship. Idk, maybe sebab I never been in relationship.And I believe I have nothing to offer, like I takde pape to make someone attracted to me. Or maybe ada orang mmg like me but I didn't know sebab I mmg gullible sikit ahhahahaha susah sikit nak percaya atau read sign orang bagi. So if you like me, just let me know. Maybe out of sudden, at I actually like you jugak ke, atau rasa you suitable for me, then we can step up our relationship kan?

The problem is I tak lawa, takde pape yang menarik? atau actually I ni lembab sangat ke tak perasan orang suka atau entahlah hahahaha. Maybe jodoh belum maghi wkwkwkw

Okay takpelah, I don't want to talk about this hehe. Kalau ada jodoh tu, adalah. Kan?

Okay, penat dah type ni. Tapi nak type jugak hahahaha

Dahlah, bye

Han